Life is a series of combats

Life is a series of combats. I have recognized long ago, but it seems my competence gets down a bit when my mind couldn't suppress the chaos. When I smelled the victory, I knew it might not last forever. Likewise, when I met the defeat, I should hold up my courage till the breakthrough finally arrived. In the past, I always did my best to accept the challenges, but this time I have all the doubts itching on my back. Maybe, I am just shedding my crocodile tears here. For there is a reason I have a fear, because I am afraid my writing in English is not improving and I have to make some excuses on my diary.