Life is a series of combats

Life is a series of combats. I have recognized long ago, but it seems my competence gets down a bit when my mind couldn't suppress the chaos. When I smelled the victory, I knew it might not last forever. Likewise, when I met the defeat, I should hold up my courage till the breakthrough finally arrived. In the past, I always did my best to accept the challenges, but this time I have all the doubts itching on my back. Maybe, I am just shedding my crocodile tears here. For there is a reason I have a fear, because I am afraid my writing in English is not improving and I have to make some excuses on my diary.

Math

Yesterday, I read the third chapter of math book. Many people are frightened of math, and I am no exception since I didn't touch math for many years. These days, I keep on reading math everyday. The more I study, the more I find that memory is the key to solve the math problems. Cause there are so many equations to memorize. I however come to conclusion, if I don't comprehand the questions, I would give them up. It is so little time during the test. My goal is to calculate eight of out ten problems in the coming test. From last week, I also estimate the timing I can spend on the math is about half hour a day. I think I lack of motivation about math problem. Nonetheless, I tend to spend more time on listening to English music, which is my like mostly. Ha!

Empathy

Yesterday I learned that empathy was quite different from sympathy. When I read empathy, I immediately recalled the fameous consultant, Carl Rogers. He emphasized three conditions to be a consultant, as congruence, empathy, and unconditional positive regard. Since I was learning English, I memorized without Chinese. One must possess empathy, so he can have better understanding of one's client. As sympathy, one however shouldn't let it go within his mind, otherwise one couldn't take a good judge of the situation of his client. It might looks confused at first, but it is better you see it through as the way it should be. Hee!

Teacher Certificate

I have passed the test of teacher certificate. It was a little scary that my score just past it barely. The next step I have to take some tests for a position in elementary school. I start to study English again and exercise my presentation that the next test will include in it. I am glad I have this chance to go to elementary school to tell a fairtale every Tuesday morning. This morning I spoke the famous one, "Little Red Riding Hood", along with color songs. I made four pictures from picture book and printed from computer in 2x2. The color was bright and gorgeous. I will continue my lecture next week.

Teaching English

This was the first English class I taught in this semester this morning. The class was new to me that I had to adjust myself to immerse in the third grade student atmoshpere. I recalled I did not teach well in the past that I had hard time to control the third graders. Now it is different and I am well prepared. I started with a nursery song, "Hickory Dickory Dock." I tried to impress students with my gestures. Secondarily, I told them the Sleeping Beauty fairytell with some big pictures. Those pictures were made from digital camera on the Disney's picture book and printed on 非常好色 in 2x2. The third episode was to teach "The Elephant", which had great content to salute the coming Mother's day. The students seemed to rejoice my teaching, and I asked their main teacher to wrap up my teaching as a whole. I also visited my previous office and droped by the principal room. It was a great morning.

Sometimes

"Do you believe ghost?", my teacher asked. I replied, "Sometime." I forgot what he intended to ask for. I just remembered to bring back to our topic and had made peers laughing. We were learning this song by Britney in our English song class. I think Britney's voice was energetic and sounded. I like her songs very much and her simple lyrics too. The rhyme, melody, and background were grogeous. I had listened this song many times, yet I couldn't catch every word. I was glad teacher brought up this song, then I could appreciate it thoroughly. "Sometimes I run, sometimes I hide, sometimes I'm scared of you, but all I really want is to hold you tight." Well, who could possibly write such great song? The song seems picking everybody's emotion.

Anxiety

Anxiety is a word of fear. I made a mistake last week. I thought it was a state of eagerness. There is a book published by Alain de botton, "Anxiety statue", which was recommended by my friend. I have searched the website, http://www.alaindebotton.com/status.htm I am still working on comprehanding the materials inside. Hopefuly, I have some comments about the fancy stuff.

Self-concept

Self-concept has influence. Franken described self-concept as a strong tendency to find motivation and behavior and worthwile deriving the intended target and ideal of those activities. Postive self-concept student has stronger incentives to endure patiently difficulties and challenge through hard work. On the other hand, the negative student gets lower achievement. Therefore, how to help students to promote the self-concept is quite a topic in school.

痴心絕對

Wanna use a cup of Latte to get you drunk
Enable you to love me a little more
The taste of my unrequited loves
You don’t understand this kind of feeling
and can never learn because you are accompanied

＊Seeing you and him in front of me
proves my love being only foolish
You don’t recognize my skinny and paleness
and you can never understand why.

# You will never realize
I've paid the kind of sadness
Why do I bother falling in love with you
You have maliciously compelled my defense
I calmly close the gate to count with my tears

△ knowing to let you leave his world is impossible
I keep on waiting a miracle to appear
One day you may discover
the true love of you was suffered alone.

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a break

I had studied for months just to take an exam last Saturday. It was finished, but we all had extraordinary experience along with the exam. It was scary and thrilling. The exam was supposed to be easy as everybody expected, but it was not. The exam covered a variety and had so many questions that we had never learned from our teacher program. Some of our classmates said they couldn't pass it for sure, and I am up in the air that my mutiple parts are fair and I need the grader to add some scores on my question part in order to pass the exam. Hopefully, they wouldn't give lower grade on that part. Amen.